May 16, 2016

An end in sight

No, not to deployment. That is still a barely flickering ember at the end of a dark tunnel.

An end to the school year is in sight.

Lately, I've felt like I have the literal weight of the world on my shoulders. Like everything is pressing down, demanding attention and there's not enough time and even when there IS enough time, the tasks and jobs I'm required to do aren't something I have the capability of doing. It is disheartening, to say the least. Some days, I don't actually know what to do with myself because I don't know where to start.

Saturday involved Skype and Scott teaching me about plumbing.
My reaction was that I basically hate everything. Except Skype. I like Skype.

This sounds dramatic, but here's a list of things I had to do in the last week:

Attend three 7:45am meetings.
Attempt to hunt down a rattlesnake (with the help of Scott's friend...we weren't successful)
Fix the four-wheeler tire.
Attach the mower to the four-wheeler and use my non-existent mechanical knowledge to make sure it's working.
Plan to fiddle with the swamp cooler and attempt to get it ready for summer. And then don't because it's stressing me out.
Learn which shotgun to use in case I run into another rattlesnake.
Contact a few dozen people (via the FRG) to "check in".
Work on grades/report cards.
Finalize end of the year data.

This list doesn't even include the daily tasks, requirements, and to-do list that I start at 8:00am and complete at 4:00pm, with 25 kids staring at me.

Add in at least 40 minutes of dog-walking and 20 minutes of Pilates each day and any blogging, reading, watching TV, phone calls, basic household chores, etc on each weekday...and I'm spent (sometimes I go out and do fun things on the weekend...I'm just describing my M-F routine here).

So I'm hoping that with my 7am-5pm block of time wiiiiide open, I should be able to focus and get a grasp (and a grip) on the things that need to be done around the house.
And then I'll spend all of my spare time reading and watching TV.
That's the plan anyway.

7 more wake-ups and 2015-2016 is officially over.


  1. "Learn which shotgun to use in case I run into another rattlesnake". That sentence alone is enough to give you a pass on everything else.

  2. I hate when I feel like there is just no way for me to get to all the things I need to get to. Hang in there. You're close to a little relief!

    Much more relief if you could find that snake, I'm sure.

  3. Oh friend I hate that you're feeling this way. You are strong, please remember that. And you ARE capable, you're capable of much more than you'd ever imagine. You can do this, I know you can. YAY for the end of the school year nearing.

  4. May totally stresses me out. And this year, they are planning to paint our building and rooms over the summer, so we have to take EVERYTHING down off of the walls and bulletin boards. *sigh* I actually took pictures of some of my permanent bulletin boards so I can put them back to the way the were.

  5. Does it really matter which shotgun when you're killing a snake? ;)


  6. You have definitely earned your summer!!!

  7. Thank goodness the school year is almost over!

    The rattlesnake thing has me freaked out. You are braver than me!


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