June 3, 2012

I do not want this blog to depress you...

...or bore you, or make you think "Wow.  Loser.".  Because, I admit, I've thought that when reading blogs before.  I pride myself on telling the truth.  And being real.  In fact, I can rehearse lies and pleasantry in my head and, in the course of human interaction, the truth usually comes tumbling out.  I have a hard time keeping things to myself.  And since I seem to have such supportive readers, I think it's important that I share.  You'd never accuse me of being all "rainbows and sunshine" anyway, right??

I thought about incorporating this into my end of the weekend Sunday Funnies.  But it's not funny. 

Actually, I think I'll start with the exciting news.  Because I have a very hard time keeping things to myself.  We have an idea of when we'll be leaving Alaska.  I can't say when, because I don't know, but it'll most likely be within the year.  Armed with this knowledge, plus the recent sunny and warm days, does wonders for a person's mood. 

Secondly, on Friday I got an email that used the words "insurgents", "attacked", and the name of the base my husband is at.

This is how the army does business.  When "an incident" occurs, they email, text message, and call the family members whose soldiers are stationed anywhere in the area.  They cause unnecessary worry, grief, and strife.  And then they tell you they're blacking everything out and don't expect to hear from anyone for a few days.  Oh, but there will be a briefing, where they will also tell you a whole lot of nothing, the next day if you're interested.  During business hours of course.  If you have a job, you're outta luck. 

Why do they have to tell us these things??  I prefer to live in my deluded world, thank you very much.  It's how I survive. 

Knowing this information did NOTHING for me.  Actually, it made me less productive, if possible.  I read it when I was getting ready to leave the gym.  I drove home and sat in the driveway (at least it was warm in the car) and stared out the windshield for 45 minutes.  Because, really, what the heck are you supposed to do?  

This has happened before and, though I don't want to tell that whole depressing story, all those feelings of worry and uncertainty come rushing back like a floodgate is opened.  

This is why I spent 8 hours watching True Blood and plowing through Pinterest on Friday afternoon/evening/night.  Because, really, what else was I SUPPOSED to do?

I like to think that I've become pretty good at distracting myself in these last SIX months.  However, when the reality of what is happening smacks me in the face, I lose all ability to function. 

Anyway.  As I said, I don't want to depress you.  I want to tell you the truth.  Because I'm not some vampire-obsessed girl.  Blog-stalking is not my #1 hobby.  And I'm pretty sure I didn't need to eat 3 Italian Ices last night.  But losing myself in something that's not my reality makes the time pass in a slightly more pleasant way. 



  1. The first deployment we went through together, we weren't married yet. So I heard nothing...ever. You would have loved it. Me? No, I was checking Army Times constantly reading about how he JCOP was attacked, how it was in a rough location, etc. I don't know what's worse- I guess it all sucks. I'm sorry you're having a down weekend. I hope he contacts you soon!

  2. I can't imagine worrying like that. I totally understand your attempts at distraction! I hope things look up soon.

  3. I can't relate to you at all but I do think if I were in your shoes, I'd be a mess all the time, lol. It seems like you handle it all pretty well! And its your blog so do what you like (and its not depressing, lol!)

  4. Is it weird for me to tell you that I wished I lived in Alaska (well, actually - I'd probably wish that you lived in Dallas) so that I could make you something delicious (using one of your own recipes, obvi) and bring you a margarita (that does NOT taste like kool-aid) right this very instant??

    Thinking about you guys and praying for the "all is well" phone call/email to come as soon as possible!!!

  5. praying for your husband and for you! I wish I lived closer to you so I could sit next to you while we blog stalk and look on pinterest.

  6. oh and eat some sugar cookie fudge.

  7. I have so much admiration for any man or woman who decides to fight for their country as well as their family. I hope everything turns out okay! Will be thinking of you!

    And I waste so many hours on pinterest...if I used those hours for my closet, it'd be picture perfect clean!

  8. I'm thinking about you! Praying everything is okay. And hoping that the vampires and ice cream are getting you through. ((hugs))

  9. I don't find you to be depressing, boring, or consider you a loser. I find you to be real, honest, and quite funny! I also admire you. I understand that there is information out there that they can't share with you, but to give you a piece of news like that with no further details.....it seems like it would be better not to know anything at all!

    I will be keeping you in my prayers.

    I also fully encourage you to blog stock, Pinterest obsess, and eat as much Italian Ice as you want. :)

  10. Blackouts are the WORST. I would be an anxious mess until I heard from kev. Im sorry you are dealing with this, but R and R is soon right?? I will totally come over and eat your tesas sheet cake. :) any idea where you are heading next??


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