February 24, 2015

In the throes

We are in the beginnings of another deployment and this marks the third in 5 1/2 years.

The first one was only 4 months, but they were easily the darkest 4 months of my life. I would not go back to those days for anything. The second was 11+ months and was the period of time in which I grew the most as a person.  2012 was simultaneously the worst year and the best year for that reason.  This third deployment won't be as long as the second, but longer than the first.  It's not even a "deployment".  He's in a "safe" country and, until a few weeks ago, I was actually going to be able to visit.  Which would've been really neat and fun and just...different.  Which made it not seem like so much of a deployment at all.  Then the army changed its mind and, unless some kind of miraculous R&R is granted, there will be no traveling for me.  I had seriously already started planning the trip and arranging for the dog-care.  Talk about annoying.

So, that's where we are.  Just an FYI I guess. Expect lots of single serve desserts and T.V. talk from me over the next several months.

I made this graphic last year and now seems an appropriate time to post it.  We have a lot going on right now: my job, his job, this house project.  I have to have faith that it will all work out appropriately because, I mean, if I could make it through 2012 in Alaska by myself, I can make it through this, right?  I really wish I had known then the things I know now, but the lesson is the same:

Psalm 46:10
And yes, that is a glacier in that picture.    

17 comments:

  1. I needed that graphic today.

    Praying you get to go see him anyway!! And that the time flies. For us both, though I'm lucky mine isn't across an ocean. Wish we lived closer - virtual hug? :)

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  2. Bah. Deployments. It's too bad you can't visit now!! What the heck?

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  3. Hugs to you. I can't imagine the strength it takes to be married during these deployments and it's so inspiring. I hope things go well as you rely on being still. Such a hard lesson for me!

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  4. Hugs and prayers! I don't have personal experience with deployment, but I can only imagine how difficult it must be! You are such a strong person!

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  5. Bummer that you won't be able to visit anymore!

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  6. I really hope you can somehow still travel and see him. If not, I hope you have enough to see you through the days, and as you know I'm mostly always on email and love to chat.

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  7. Hugs to you and that sucks about the travel situation. Military spouses have my utmost respect. I can't imagine what you guys go through.

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  8. Ugh, Im sorry. Where is he headed? There are a lot of safe country deployments from Kev's current job too and I think it would be even harder to know that they are in reach but you cant go... maybe you can find a loophole! I will be praying for yall, I know how much it sucks!

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  9. I'm so sorry Kristin. I cannot even imagine. Everyone always talks about honoring our heroes that serve our country, but I hope you know I honor you and all the men and women like you. You're serving our country too. <3

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  10. I feel like I can relate...to an extent. But it's so not the same, and I know that. Stay strong! I hope somehow you get to visit

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  11. I'm sorry. I hope they change their mind again and you get to visit. I can't imagine going through so many deployments, but you do! You are a warrior woman. Sending you lots of hugs.

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  12. I am sorry about the travels, I hope you are able to somehow still see him if it's a possibility. I hope the time flies by and its as enjoyable as it can be.

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  13. Oh, friend! I'm sorry :(
    I hate deployments so much!

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  14. Sending you so much love, friend. I am awed by your strength and commitment. I never know how you do it. I appreciate your endless support for me the last several months, and though things have been rough for us both, our friendship and the support it brings makes me smile. <3

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  15. Well, that does suck that you won't be able to visit...especially since it was yanked away from you. But you are so right. You will make it through this, too!

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  16. Great graphic. Great reminder. Great love story! It is very clear how much you and Scott love one another. True love always overcomes whatever odds life throws at it. It is so hard to find couples nowadays who are actually willing to keep their vows "for better or for worse." You are a Proverbs 31 woman! :) And I am proud to call you a friend! Stay strong, and when you cannot, that is okay, too, because God is always there to scoop us up and hold us in our times of need. Let me know if there is anything I can do besides pray for you both during this time!

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  17. Blah. That stinks for you. Sending you good thoughts. Can you guys Skype/Google Hangout during deployments or is that verboten?

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